Filling the Void

Two years ago, I wrote a post called “Endings“, in which I talked about the difficulty of saying goodbye to my clients who are graduating or moving on. Well, another school year is drawing to a close and I am again faced with endings and goodbyes. I find it hard to let go. I’ve learned to do so, but it’s never easy. I won’t have a chance to follow up on my clients once they leave college. All I can do is thank them for the honor of working with them, offer up a silent prayer for their continued well-being, and let go. When I do this, I’m often left with an empty feeling. It is that emptiness that the voice of my eating disorder (“Ed”) has pounced on in years past.

When I’m feeling empty, emotionally vulnerable, or physically and mentally drained, Ed says things like, “You know you’ll feel better if you eat cake. Just go out and buy a whole bunch of junk food and eat it until you’re numb. Numbness is better than pain, right?” Sometimes, I give in to that voice and eat when I’m not physically hungry, just to numb out. But I’ve gotten better in the past five years at filling that void with spirit-food. For example, reviewing my collection of cards and notes from friends and loved ones can make me feel special and loved. Or, lighting a candle for my clients can be a symbolic reminder of the light within each of us. Or, simply acknowledging my sadness and allowing myself to cry can help.

How are you filling the void in your life? Are you filling it with physical food, as Ed will have us do? Or are you tending to your emotional and spiritual needs, which lie under the surface, waiting to be discovered and nurtured?

May each of us find peace as we seek to fill that void within.

Peace, joy, and health,



2 thoughts on “Filling the Void

  1. kyladawn15 says:

    One of my favourite sayings that helps me let go of people in my life, for whatever reason it may be, is: “everyone comes into your life for either a reason, a season, or a lifetime” that saying speaks to me in a huge way. Just thought I’d pass it along in case you’ve not heard it before 🙂 Keep on truckin.

    Kyla Ellwood
    Sent wirelessly from my BlackBerry device on the Bell network.
    Envoyé sans fil par mon terminal mobile BlackBerry sur le réseau de Bell.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s